My days are filled with so much pain

she said I love you for her own gain

white nights only exist in fairy tales

and no one can hear these silent wails

In darkness I stay kept from all light

so no one sees what is, my plight

the tears roll backwards so no one sees

I am hidden away in her forest of trees

In darkness I sit, wait, a moment eyes shut

where in silent darkness I fear to strut

Away from what kills my soul, leaving me empty

of sleeping with the enemy I could not see

Bruises heal with time, memories linger on

And I shall fight I say till death or dawn

To free myself from a past I kept running to

Because I had to keep you near, now I must undo

All the beatings of words to kill a soul

that kept me down deep in that darkened hole

With each new step I climb closer to the light

to look around and see without the fright

To a new place of light, where there are no more you’s

and my heart can beat again, without the blues.