Made a visit to my hometown
The place where so much anxiety
has piled up
As if it for years was glued
to my skeleton
The place where shame
became part of my DNA
And nearly destroyed me
The place where loneliness
grew into my veins
Creating a flood of pain
The place where the demand to fit
into awfully narrow boxes
Almost killed me
The place that triggers so much ugliness
and holds me back
As if it was holding me tight with steel wires

I made a visit to THAT place

Things have changed
Within me
This time
I held my head up higher
And my guard down lower
I could smell fragments of inner Freedom
closing in on me
Touching me
Not embracing me fully yet
But being visible
And that is truly beautiful
And all I need
For now