the life blood is being sucked out of me and terror is is all encompassing,
doom falls like a thick darkness enveloping and there are no cracks… A thick wooden door slams shut and panic sets in and there is nowhere to hide.. No breath in my lungs.
Abandonment.. A scorpios tail..
never knowing when or where she will sting
i breathe my way through another shit storm…
With invisible hand holding,
sharing silent screaming, wordless motion
She speaks words to my child that brings hope
abandonment lessens its vice like grip around me
for some part of my rollercoaster ride.
Moments of life
Seeds tiny morsels of hope
Helping them to flourish
A smile that had
Long been discarded
Where once intense torment
Dwelled within my soul
Made possible my escape from hell
Is like dawn
Seeds of Light
Growing in my soul
The lightness that is coming
Dare i believe
That the light will
Drive the darkness
From within me
To find my truth
my true self
To find freedom
Long ago lost.