I didn’t want a private investigation or a public inquiry
I didn’t want to know why
I wanted to know when difference became unacceptance
And I wanted to love the person I was and not the one I thought I should be.

I didn’t want forgiveness or taking to church
I didn’t want a cure
I wanted to be myself, as loved afterwards as I was before
And I wanted to live the life I owed myself and not one of suffering and guilt.

I didn’t want a rainbow without the rain
I didn’t want an easy ride
I wanted to get through it once, and make that my greatest achievement
And I wanted to thereafter let it be my unconscious essence and not persistent thought.

I didn’t want a song without the tears
I didn’t want to sail through life unhurt
I wanted to let others know me for who I was and not let those heavy chains drag me down
And I wanted to throw down my mask and be my best self with loved ones and friends.

That was then and this is now and it goes on still
Everyday I need strength for today I might need to revisit that place
Even though the birds have sung their goodnights on that first, hardest revelation
I now accept it is a design of my life and will challenge and test me for eternity.
Such is coming out.