Things I have done
Things I have not done
Things others have done
Thoughts I have thought
Feelings I have felt
Feelings I have not felt
Dreams I have dreamt
Plans I have planned
Reactions I have had
How I have looked
How I have not looked
Memories I have memorized

Filled with so much shame
Filled with guilt
Scratching me inside
Still kicking me in solar plexus
Stealing my breath for a while

One day it will all be dissolved
But not today
It will happen
When I am ready
For yet another fight