The day I knew you were never going to love me
The way that I loved you
Was the day I learnt to love, to really love
I let go of the idea of “us”
It hurt so bad
I grieved our possibility
I respected your reality
And I stopped arguing inside
I prayed for your happiness
With or without me
I gifted myself my dignity
I breathed in and gave up hope
I had decided to love you unconditionally
To want your happiness
More than wanting you to be with me
And now my heart is healed
And you, you are my friend
Still in my life
Enjoying cups of tea