All chapters in my life

Have a soundtrack

Songs triggering me

To feel pain

To cry

To dive into the ocean

Of anxiety

But also

To smile

And feel the softness

Of a happy memory

Touching my soul

The soundtracks make me FEEL

Music is a powerful tool

Guiding me through the maze

Of emotions and memories

Music can get me into balance

But also be a trigger

For my deeply rooted melancholy

All my soundtracks tell a story

Some I can tell others and some not

My soundtrack 1990

”When the children cry”

And I did

My soundtrack 1996

”Break on through to the other side”

Lots of fun partying and living abroad

But didn’t think I would live til the age of 30, just like Jim

My soundtrack 2003

”Come to my window”

Coming out and both Melissa and

my first girlfriend came into my life

My soundtrack 2010

”Try sleeping with a broken heart”

Separation made me fall into the darkest of holes

Two years later I got up again

My soundtrack 2020

”Story of my life”

Being an anxious introvert becomes an advantage

Worry, fear and isolation is now more expectation than taboo

The new normal

What soundtrack will next chapter get?

”Cool change”?

”Under pressure”?

Or

”Oh happy day”?