IS IT JOY OR PAIN THAT I’M FEELING? by Fiona Goodwin

Is it Joy or pain that I’m feeling?
As I sit down to pray
And the tears are flowing even before I say I’m here.
The chrysalis of nothingness
Means brokenness dissolution,
Will these tears
Dissolve this ego?
I pray and pray
But that’s no guarantee of transformation
The Crusaders
The ones that fervently massacred the Turks
Prayed each day before they slaughtered in Gods name
They did it for spiritual gain
How can a heart be sure
How can our Intention be pure?
By embracing our highest truth
By saying farewell to the caterpillar
The cocoon knows what to do
If we let it
It will melt us down to liquid form
The truth of us will emerge
From nothing
And a butterfly will spread its wings and fly