You see
I don’t always know what I’m saying
I don’t always say what I mean
I say a half truth
And the half lie
appears in the sadness in your eyes.
And you quickly hide that
And pretend you didn’t know that I lied
before we know it
We are in silence and alone.

I want to come out to you
with my pain
I want to let the chips fall where they may
And I want you to do the same.

You see
I know that sometimes
I shout to conceal my love
I smile to keep secret my rage
I whisper to hide the fear
That I’m too much,
Too strange
Unloveable.

Would you promise to tell me
When the words I speak
Don’t feel true to you?
Or when you feel
cheated out of the mess of who I am?
I know you plan to love all of me
And that you can’t if
All of me
Isn’t on offer.